Saturday, March 28, 2015 6:23 PM
so many things to change, so little time
indeed a lifetime is not enough for a person to mature. i should know.
how does one change one's personality such that the world can finally accept oneself? is that even possible: 1) can one change one's personality; 2) can the world ever accept one?
over and over again i am reminded of my shortcomings and flaws. so much so that i wish i could just stop everything because each day all i see are these - nothing else. it just gets so tiring. but i guess that's just how things are. because of my facade of confidence and outspoken nature, people just assume that i am all action and no introspection.
if only they could spend a day in my head, they'll be banging against the dura, screaming to get out in no time. this mind is not a pleasant place to be in, but no one sees it. not that i expect anyone to, considering everyone has their own struggles and has no time and effort to remember that each person has personal struggles too. it just would be nice.
guess being a psychology major didn't help me at all, it just made me even more psychotically introspective, to the point of neuroticism and crippling self-doubt. good to have changed fields then i suppose. just wonder if it was all too late