and i'm glad that i was just thinking too much(:
it was a good talk with may, even with the time constraint. and i know that i shouldn't let these things hold me back. these are things of the past generations, and that's where they should remain, not making me stagnate.
it is difficult. it always is. change. trust. it's always the small little words that encompasses the most and requires the most of us. even if you are not the right one for me, though i do hope that you are, i should still learn how to move out of the shadows of the past. because, history might not repeat itself. lightning doesn't hit the same spot twice, or so they say, though obviously statistically untrue, but having some truth in it anyhow. and as may pointed out, i am not mummy, the circumstances are different. and what are the chances that he will be papa? not very high i presume.
sure, divorce may be out of the question, but there is separation i guess. besides, is staying together really all that beneficial for the children? i'm not exactly the best example, am i? of course, one may point out that i am just ultra sensitive so anything could have made me neurotic anyway. though it has been proven that warring parents aren't the best formula for bringing kids up. so.
what is there really stopping me from changing my mentality toward trusting guys?
