Tuesday, June 21, 2011 10:48 PM
And sometimes I really do feel that sense of worthlessness so acutely that I wonder how anyone can even bear to look at me for although I always try my best to turn a cheerful and confident face to the world I know that it is utterly inadequate and who am I fooling for facades never do stay on for long and besides the coats of varnish only serve to highlight the imperfections beneath and I really wish that this wouldn't affect me that I can not care and mean it but really who am I fooling