you will be who you want to be
you can take whatever heaven grants
as long as you can have your chance
i swear i'll give my life for you

Memory, turn your face to the moonlight
Let your memory lead you
Open up, enter in
If you find there the meaning of what happiness is
Then a new life will begin

Memory, all alone in the moonlight
I can smile at the old days
I was beautiful then
I remember the time I knew what happiness was
Let the memory live again

Burnt out ends of smokey days
The stale cold smell of morning
The streetlamp dies, another night is over
Another day is dawning

Daylight, I must wait for the sunrise
I must think of a new life and I musn't give in
When the dawn comes tonight will be a memory too
And a new day will begin

Sunlight, through the trees in summer
Endless masquerading
Like a flower as the dawn is breaking
the memory is fading

Touch me, it's so easy to leave me
All alone with the memory
Of my days in the sun
If you touch me, you'll understand what happiness is

Look, a new day has begun

I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
Walks along the Seine, laughing in the rain
Our last summer
Memories that remain

We made our way along the river
And we sat down in the grass
By the Eiffel tower
I was so happy we had met
It was the age of no regret
Oh yes

Those crazy years, that was the time
Of the flower-power
But underneath we had a fear of flying
Of getting old, a fear of slowly dying
We took the chance
Like we were dancing our last dance

I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
In the tourist jam, round the Notre Dame
Our last summer
Walking hand in hand

Paris restaurants
Our last summer
Morning croissants
Living for the day, worries far away
Our last summer
We could laugh and play

And now you're working in a bank
The family man, a football fan
And your name is Harry
How dull it seems
Yet you're the hero of my dreams

I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
Walks along the Seine, laughing in the rain
Our last summer
Memories that remain

I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
In the tourist jam, round the Notre Dame
Our last summer
Walking hand in hand

I can still recall our last summer
I still see it all
Walks along the Seine, laughing in the rain
Our last summer
Memories that remain

realisations are powerful things.
they empower people, giving rise to beautiful and terrible things all at the same time.

i'm glad i realised with full clarity my position in the family. i've always skirted around the edges, not daring to admit it openly but it's in full view now. nearly eighteen years for me to come to terms withe reality, the extent of human delusion indeed. it is sad knowing how things are and always will be whether i fight it or not. i'm not being defeatist, i'm just coming to terms with life.

you've always been much much more cunning than me, anyone can see that. i won't last a day against you, but you've been nice and have spared me for almost eighteen years. and now that you've decided to launch an offensive against me, i'm waiting alongside you, seeing how long i'll last. every minute's a small and muted victory that's marching me towards my ultimate doom. he will never help. he probably won't even realise what's happening considering that he's both stupid and deliberately ignorant of any wrongdoing you do. she will try her best to be fair and you know that. which is why you've been treading really carefully around her this time round. you know that if you want a complete victory you would need to win her over. and you have. try as she might, when the end is near, even she will be powerless as he will always have the final say.

i see my life stretching off endless into the distance. but i also see it slipping right of the precipice. life is comprised of many different choices but when all is said and done, one can only wait and see what happens.

and i wait.

rhoda
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nus

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love(:

maybe next time when i'm strong enough(:

none for the moment