i really don't like the fact that every single time the exams roll around, my brain is in creative overdrive, churning out ridiculous ideas and concepts of just about everything, over analysing every single minute detail, caught up in yet another fantasy world. even my dreams become so much more colourful, and dense, and realistic.
is this another form of procrastination? a sort of implicit want within me to distract myself from the pressing issues at hand. or is this a coping mechanism? the more i feel the pressures from academia or the like, the more i conjure my pretty little world where everything works perfectly and i am free to indulge myself in whatever wacky idea i come up with. (yes, i have not forgotten my popcorn idea from the pre-a-level period)
although i feel that this is something that i enjoy, an avenue to let off some steam and just relax or get excited about an absolutely crazy notion (a sort of mania? hmm..), it also takes up a lot of time, invaluable time that should be poured into studying or doing something more useful. living in one's head is fine and good if one's a hermit, which i am not. and it does kind of stink that most anti-procrastination measures do not work in this case. like, how do i remove the distraction? i do need my head very much thank you.
and i shall go back to studying. or thinking about how i can mix and match my nail polishes for different finishes><"
