everytime i think that maybe things just might finally be better, you make everything come crashing down again. i know i shouldn't let this affect me, this is nothing, next to nothing, but i guess there just is way too much water under the bridge already. anything, anything at all, will bring all the memories back, a deluge that inundates the fragile barriers of my mind and shakes the foundations of my very soul. it's just horrible that you have that much hold over me and i don't like it. just what right do you have to dictate the peaks and troughs of my emotions?
i really need to walk away. now.
