i'm scared.
i really am. i don't want us to end. i don't want any distance between us. i'm scared of me, of what i might do, of how i might push him away. and i really don't know what's wrong with me, why can't i just confide in him? give him the reassurance he needs because it really is enough, everything he is doing, it is more than enough. because he does make the effort to get to know me, to understand what i am thinking which is everything i had ever wished for. and it's so ironic that when i meet someone who finally is, i get scared and hide in a corner. i just wish that i'll finally be able to tell him everything, really confide in him and let him understand why i do things this way.
i really should get over my fears, because i know that he is here, waiting for me and protecting me. but he might not be forever. and i do not want to lose him, because i feel safe when i'm with him and i feel that maybe this is what's meant to be. i like his way, how he is always there for me without intruding, giving me time to get over myself. and really, the only person in the way is myself.
now, why can't i just tell him all this? ><"
because, 'but actually now she say they've been fine for a year plus le, i also dont wanna ask her leh because she will start thinking about it again'
