and i am very thankful for you. it does seem like God is answering my prayers, providing me with a guy who actually cares and wants to understand me. of course, it is far too early to say if he will actually like who i am in my entirety, but it's nice to know that someone actually bothers to dig deep enough to find out my feelings and thoughts.
i do so want to give you the reassurance you need but it is so difficult on so many levels. the most obvious is the 'ban' on the speaking of familial issues. our family really is the best at not talking about our problems, thinking that this will somehow magic them away. not. haha. besides it is very difficult talking about these issues and even before the ban was instituted, i already found it extremely difficult to talk about them. now i just have an additional excuse to hide behind. convenient much? haha. still, i would really love to confide in you.
and i just might be on my way to believing(:
