this whole week has been nothing but a whole series of emotional ups and downs. just as i thought that i had crawled out of that hole last night, you just had to push me down again. i do think that normally i wouldn't be so affected by this, but i am in a rather fragile state right now and anything, anything at all, could just set me off. i know that this isn't very fair to you but that's just how it is, that's just how i am.
i know that i shouldn't be so affected by everyone around me. i'm not a weather vane, pushed around by the forces of nature around me. i am me, my own person, why do i let everyone affect me this much? it's not the best state to be in. maybe it really is better to closet myself up again, in my very own glass box. it's too scary out there, considering how easily i fall over whenever i open myself up to anyone. it's funny though, that this is happening now. normally my emo momo period comes during december when i have plenty of time to think. but i guess that when things go up, they can only come down. so, after one of the best decembers of my life, it's time to plunge back down into reality, and re-enter my gilded closet.
