thank God that it was just overthinking on my part(:
in fact, i find myself falling faster and faster and i don't know if this is a good thing or not. it's quite scary, becoming so transparent in front of him. it feels as if there isn't a way to hide what i feel from him and this lack of something to hide behind is unnerving. i have been hiding from others' direct gaze for far too long yet i am pleased that he is making an effort to seek out who i am.
he may not be the solid, mature rock that i wish for but his ability to see me for who i am and connect to me, his sensitivity and sweetness just breaks down my defences and i find myself yearning to lean more on him.
of course this still is very much the initial period thus all the sweetness and stuff yet i feel slightly more optimistic about this. maybe it's the fact that i am approaching with caution and not just being impulsive. maybe, just maybe, this is what is meant to happen(:
