i knew that things had been good for far too long. almost a year to be exact. at least it wasn't a big one, just some letting off steam. but it did catapult me back to '07 and that terrifying car ride. i guess the situation was kind of similar for a slight sense of deja vu to occur. thank God that nothing bad happened.
i just wish that things like this will stop happening. and to be able to walk out of all these. my life shouldn't be dictated by tempers and warped thinking on his part. my life is quite separate, thank you very much. must keep reminding myself that our lives may be slightly entwined due to the unavoidable fact of parenthood but they will, they must, develop separately from there. i will not be trapped in an abusive relationship, i will not.
and i do hope that i will not become like him either.
