BUTTERFLIES IN MY TUMMY.
urgh.
i don't know what i'm doing anymore. is this the right path to tread? it feels so comfortable and safe and right. but i don't know if this is what i am supposed to be doing. pushing the boundary between friend and something more is such a scary thing to do. and it doesn't help that he is such a nice guy, it's practically criminal to upset him. besides, do i really like him in that way, or am i just lonely and wanting company? is it really alright to fall in love then bring him to church? am i ready for a relationship? what about all my insecurities and fears? will he be enough..?
and the questions continue.
as do the dreams.
time to stop overthinking everything?