you know how hard it is for me to make small talk. you know how hard it is for me to engage in one-sided conversations. so help me. i am making the effort. i know that you're angry with me for reasons that aren't even valid, though i can't tell you that i know that you're angry cos i'm not supposed to know. and this is just so frustrating cos i'm still trying to build a bridge out to you and you're not even trying, in fact you're pushing me away without being uncivil about it.
i don't know why i even try anymore.
this was probably a wrong decision.
so help me, Lord.
