really don't know what to do. because i know everyone expects me to be thrilled and all but yet all i feel is emptiness. knowing that this is my first ever bouquet, knowing that it is from you, one of my closest friends, knowing that i cannot reciprocate those feelings, knowing that whatever i do, i will i only hurt you, knowing that deep down inside, i do wish that my first bouquet was given by him.
but then again, it has happened and i have responded in the way i did and i can't undo it much as i want to though i don't know how i would respond the second time if second chances existed. i'm just really very confused as to what to do now. like really. i need a guidebook now.
