Tuesday, August 07, 2007 9:35 PM
today was fun
and bittersweet
memories mixing with the present, blurring the edges till i wasn't sure which was which anymore.
do you remember?suntec. movies. the rooftop garden. the fountain. the playground. the macs.
everything, everything.
i tried so hard to ignore you and treat you as a friend. i really tried.
but obviously i didn't really succeed.
and my defences fell one by one as the day progressed
that was the poster where you took a photo of pris and methat was the fountain where you took a photo of us that was....i swear suntec just is a treasure trove of memories
but of course this treasure trove really is in comparison with the little memories that we managed to make together.
but it still is alot.
especially when you're trying to forget
tried to be high. tried to run away. tried to numb myself.
well, i didn't work.
and i felt ill.
of course gastric and dehydration had a large part to play, but it still was you
my brain just is too pathetically small that it can't process so much feelings and information at one go
and with all the memories along with the onslaught of colours and sounds, i guess my brain decided to shut down
i don't want to think anymoreand of course with me feeling so awful as it is, i had to think of the times in australia where you were there for me whenever i didn't feel well, walking beside me, just being there.
and i felt even emptier
sigh.
snap out of this rhoda kwan.
walk away.
