i realised that no matter what i tell myself, whatever arguments and debates i formulate, whatever evidence i find, i can never refute the fact that i love you.

but you probably don't realise

and i only have myself to blame

should i continue with my original plan? if i do, that means that i still can't talk to him or be too nice to him as jill says that i'll only be giving him false hope and i don't want to do that as i know the feeling of being lifted to great heights only to be pushed straight down the ravine. i can see treetops! yet i miss him alot. seeing him today just simply left me overwhelmed with feelings, all that memories and past feelings cannot be forgotten just like that. and it probably doesn't help that i still have feelings for him.

i'm really happy that hs is together with lyd now. they're really cute and sweet together. thank you to the two of you for reminding me that love does exist in this world between a guy and a girl and it's not all just a mixture of hormones and i-don't-know-what-else.

really disillusioned about the concept of love now. can a person love another so dearly but still contrive to lie to her?

i don't know
i don't even know for sure if you do love me
but i guess that's an unfair statement on my part

but i do know
that i love you

and that's the only thing i'm sure of

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love(:

maybe next time when i'm strong enough(:

none for the moment