Sunday, April 29, 2007 12:57 PM
i think my life really revolves around choir now
it's like not going for choir just for one saturday and my entire self is thrown into turmoil. no calming notes to soothe my frayed nerves and relieve the stress and tension accumulated, no joy stemming from the simple ability to sing, to sing with a choir, all seventy plus of us moving together in minds and souls to achieve that same goal, that same passion, of producing music, the love of our lives.
but now i'm not really part of them anymore, our goals have shifted apart
would the music still be the same?
the syf choir, and the non-syf singers
no matter how much we try to deny it, to cover it up, the division is there, plain as daylight for us to see.
and it hurts alot, to know that i'm not one of them, not one of those destined to achieve great heights for vj choir, not one of those who will contribute to the success of choir
it's just so sec2 again, where i was once again left out, left behind by the high-fliers, those whose voices were beautiful, whose stamina was there, whose tone was perfect, whose pitch was precise, those who could sing.
it all just boils down to the fact that my voice sucks. alot.
what's the point of having such a saccharine sweet throat voice when my singing voice sucks so horribly?
what's the point of having such a high pitched speaking voice when my singing voice range is so heavily limited?
just what's the point?
i'm just not good enough. ever.
no matter how hard i try, i'm always left behind.
i think i'm the one and only chorister who has never ever went for a single competition before, not even syf.
all because i'm not good enough
