Thursday, December 21, 2006 2:43 PM
sigh. yesterday i learnt some rather unpleasant things. like how bad things really are between me and the class. and i don't even know what i did wrong that they're doing that to me. thankfully i still have close friends. thank God for them! and it's terrible knowing that who you thought you could trust was the one who turned others against you. and it's even more terrible knowing that after turning others against you that person still pretended to be friendly and tried to analyse with you what went wrong between you and the others. and it's terrible not knowing why that person did that. and you really wonder whether there really was a friendship between the two of you.
i can't believe i had actually trusted you. maybe you had your reasons. i'd want to believe that. even though jill told me not to think about it anymore, i still can't help but wonder just what happened that made you do that to me? i heard that it was something which i did to you that made everyone not like me. but what did i do? i heard that you would sort it out with me, but it never happened. why won't you tell me what wrong did i commit? i really want to know. although i know that my knowing probably might not change the current situation, but i really want to know what did i do wrong.
will you please stop this guessing game?
