Wednesday, November 08, 2006 11:23 AM
i'm so sorry for ignoring this blog for so long. sorry blog! okay that was absolutely lame.
i've been feeling totally down and out and disillusioned and what not. i feel like deleting my other blog. anyway probably half of all who read the other blog hate me anyway. like defaming me on my tagboard and stuff. and since stupid me forgot my user and pw and wonderful cbox refuses to send me either, i can't delete all those defamations from my board. rahh. i am seriously irritated with my life.
why do i have such a horrible father and a sister who takes me as her punching bag? why do i have such horrible classmates who treat me as some kind of monster just because okay i don't know why they treat me that way but they just do. and stupid mr yang just had to put in my helmsman report that i needed to 'play a more influential role among my peers'. yarh right. how to when they all just treat me like part of the landscape? thankfully i still have ylynn pris and jill and the guys or i'll just die or sth and no one will even remember me. i seriously don't know what those awful girls told mr yang about me. probably something like i just stopped talking to them for no reason whatsoever or something like that. they're more than capable of doing things like that. urgh. can't believe i used to think of them as friends. and i so don't like myself for bitching about them behind their backs down here. sigh. i really am such a pathetic creature.
that's it. i'm deleting my other blog. okay. maybe i shouldn't. i'll delete my tagboard then. just put comments there. at least i can moderate my comments without stupid servers not allowing me too. rahh.
oh yuck this post is just so emo. eww.
