Saturday, November 04, 2006 10:24 AM
i'm all clear.
praise the Lord!(:
i really am so relieved to know that i can be declared cancer free without going through either radiation or chemo. it really is a blessing. it was like i was just so prepared to go bald already larh. i had even planned out different outfits to give a sort of street edge to my bald head. haha. i think ahead kay. but thankfully, i won't need to go to that now. i'm all clear!((:
i like my scar. for the time being that is. cos now it's just one nice straight(almost) line which doesn't bulge and isn't a weird colour. but i know that within a few weeks or so it'll start to bulge and turn red and purple and become oh so ugly. and then i'll start to hate it. i'll probably hate it even more than my previous one cos this one is like 8cm longer. rahh. so ugly. eww. anyway i'll just continue liking it now cos it's still nice and normal looking. hee.
but now that i don't have cancer, i don't know what to do when i see you. cos i left you because i had cancer(ooh, how nice to say had. haha) but now that i'm clear, what should i do? i know that you know that i still like you and you still like me. but what should we do? i really am too selfish. how can i treat you this way? sigh. i'm such a horrid person. i must learn to consider other people's feelings before acting and not to act on impulse. i really am quite an impulsive person. sigh. can't i ever be more mature? i don't want to hurt you anymore. so what should i do?
and i just promised yixuan yesterday that i'll stop sighing.
