Sunday, October 22, 2006 3:47 PM

i'm back! haha. with a 15cm scar. ohwells. what can i say? i'm clean, i've cleared my bladder, i'm full. relatively happy. yet there's this emptiness inside. again. ohwells. i'm just so plain and my feelings are like so readable like a book. so boring. no one would ever bother with a story like mine.
she had cancer. she died. she didn't. that's it. how interesting right?
blah.
i should have died in the operation. just stop all the pain i cause everyone around me. i just want my ashes to be kept in a pretty little anna sui inspired pink box with black detailing and left somewhere, best forgotten. i think that would be really nice. maybe a white candle with a few white flowers there too?