Saturday, August 26, 2006 12:26 PM
unexpected what you did to my heartthinking back, i realise that i never really learnt to treasure you when you were by my side. 以为你在我身边是理所当然的。我真傻。这世上是没有理所当然的是的，不努力去争取，是不会得到什么的。我真傻。will you ever come back to me? will i ever let you come back to me? 这所谓的保护并不容易。wanting to protect you, but only hurting you even more. will i ever let you protect me? 我只会让人觉得疲倦，伤心。i need to stop hurting you. maybe my disppearance will help? n my sister plays the most depressing song ever on the piano. wow. that helps.):替我飞翔吧。
i dream the scariest dreams. last night was a scary night. i wonder if it would come true? my dreams tend to come true. i don't know why. maybe this will come true too. if it is, my disppearance will come more easily. so i guess it wouldn't be too bad although i'll be terrified. i am terrified now. afraid that it will come true. i hope that it will come true and will not come true. i wish i could confide in him now. my friend used to say that telling someone your bad dream will make the dream not come true. instead, the opposite will happen. i wish i could tell him. but yet i can't. maybe i will tell him after the dream has come true if it ever does.
let my song take flight.
crush this empty shell of mine so that i can fly again. i don't want to be bothered by my health anymore. i don't want to grow up. i just want to stay like this, always near you, protecting you in every way that i can. but i know that my wishes never do come true.
