Saturday, August 19, 2006 11:00 PM
staying online just to see you online a little while more. not that i'll talk to you. i just want you to forget me. our times together. your feelings for me. just leave them in the rubbish dump. i don't want you to suffer because of me. it wouldn't be fair if i expect you to stay with me when i have cancer. i'd rather you go far far away and find yourself a better girl, a girl who doesn't make you worry all the time, a girl who isn't terminally ill, a girl who isn't a burden to you, a girl who can make you truly happy. that's all i wish for. i know that i will hurt you by leaving you, but it's all for the better. the pain caused will be so much lesser for you than if you had stayed by me watching me waste away. i wish you all the best and i hope that that special girl will come into your life soon. don't ever think about me and certainly don't remember me. walk on and live your life. fly for me my sparrow.
