Tuesday, July 25, 2006 10:48 PM
went for my checkup today. dr tan was erm, very busy. as usual. what did i expect? but i think he's a good doctor. at least he's supposed to be. lol.
so he looked at my nice little railway track of a wound and said that it was healing nicely. so i'll be able to remove my leg brace at the end of the month! whoopee! no more weird stares! or at least less anyway. haha. ppl just like staring at anything out of the ordinary and 7cm centipede-looking scars are anything but ordinary. so he said that although the tests said that the margin was clear, there still were a few cancer cells in the margin larh. thank the Lord! however, there was a cluster of cancer cells at the back near the joint and muscle and what not (i'm not very familiar with my anatomy) and as it was too near he couldn't risk taking it out. ohwells. always save the leg right? and cos for the past few days my left lymph node, or however it's spelled, was a little swollen. but i'm not sure if it's a lump or not cos it's irritatingly beside the hip bone so all i feel is well, swollen flesh. yarh. so asked him and he couldn't tell either. ha! my skills aren't tt bad after all. heex. so it's either a reaction from the op which is quite normal and will go down after a while. or the cancer has spread. comforting right? haiz. my life seems to be revolving round the word cancer now. horrid. it is so not the center of my life kay. and i will not let it be. cos God will always be my first priority.
anyway, dr tan said that the board of radiologists will bring my case up soon and discuss. especially my case cos it's going to be controversial. i wanted to ask, how controversial is controversial? will i appear in the papers? lol. he said that as i'm still young and growing (finally someone who realises tt i GROW) and radiation stunts growth, my case will probably be argued for quite a long time. he gave it a month. lol. the board must be pretty fickle right. but of course it's probably because they want to use the holistic approach. maybe there's still hope for my left leg to grow. don't let me down leg!(:
just hope that during this month the cancer cells won't continue to multiply. nasty little things. gahh. but things seem to be looking good. praise the Lord!(:
