Thursday, July 06, 2006 9:09 PM
i want to cry. seriously.
i mean like i knew it all along larh. i was just deluding myself. as usual. and now i can't anymore. it's right in my face.
you still like me. and can't forget the times we spent together last year. even when i'm already attached, and in a different school, learning different things, different ccas. even when the chances of meeting are like so slim. only when i go back to visit then do we meet. and even then, we hardly talk.
yet, i can still feel your feelings for me, how you still look at me in that way, no matter how hard you try not to, even though my stead is your friend. but i always tried to ignore it. and treat you like a friend. but, it still didn't work.
you biao baied to me a second time. and this time, it really is more hopeless than the earlier one, for it's not just a crush i'm having, it's a full-blown relationship. you never do learn do you?
what should i do to make you stop loving me?
you told me earlier this year that you liked zf. and i gave you my blessings although she didn't like you. nothing came out of it. but you never did like her, did you? you were just putting up a pretence, trying to delude yourself and stop yourself from liking me right? haiz. please don't hurt yourself anymore kay? it pains me to see you that way too.): let's just cross our fingers and hope for the best.
