Wednesday, July 19, 2006 3:52 PM
i never thought the end would come so fast. but it has. and with this post, i close the past chapter of my life.
the cancer has been completely removed. or so they say. the surrounding tissue that had been cut out in the 2nd operation has been sent for a biopsy and the results shows that the margin is clear. praise the Lord! it really is a miracle. the entire church had feared the worst cos though the cancer was in an early stage, it was growing pretty fast. as in the sarcoma was growing very fast. like wow. maybe all the scans had irritated it and made it grow faster cos it's been there since last year and had been pretty much the same size until after the findings. haha. quite ironic actually. but what matters most is that it has been removed and the surrounding area has been given the all-clear. thanks be to God!(:
the second thing that marks the end of this chapter is my breakup with him. yuppz. i've broken up with him. it was a hard decision and i still feel a little uncomfortable without him by my side. not that he was always by my side anyway. i'll miss him, the emotional support, the care, the concern, for him just being him. i'll miss it all. but we've agreed to remain good friends. there wasn't much fuss. it ended much cleaner than i thought it would. but it's bittersweet, really. sweet cause i know i won't be a burden to him anymore and bitter cause i will miss him. and it'll be hard forgetting all that he has done for me. and somehow, the bitter outweighs the sweet. but i guess every breakup is like this. except for my past one with *******. ohwells. i shall just continue savouring this taste of dark chocolate, that rich, deep flavour which is being reflected in me right now.
why do i always prefer dark chocolate to white?
